That year, literally at the very beginning of the year (Happy New Year to me…), I began noticing there was something wrong within my body. At first it was subtle and hard to describe. I honestly thought I had shingles based on some of the symptoms (strange tingling sensations, etc.). The only thing I didn’t have was a rash. I even went to an urgent care and declared I may have shingles. The doctor looked at me like I had grown three heads and that was the end of that visit. (If you found me through my Medical Medium connections and know anything about his take on shingles, you’ll find this very funny—And at this point, I had never heard of the guy.) Over the next few months, things progressed quickly. By March/April, I had severe anxiety symptoms, insomnia for fear of passing out due to light headedness and heart palpitations, chest pain, sensitive nerves, tingling and numbness, body vibrations, heat sensations and numbness in my legs, and a tremor in my left hand. Not to mention a shot digestive system, acne, extreme fatigue, weight loss, low blood pressure, body aches, joint pain, the loss of my menstrual cycle for 10 months, severe migraines, and more symptoms I’m sure I’ve missed. I have never been so rattled and terrified in my life. For obvious reasons, I thought I was dying…and really, if I didn’t find my way out, I know I could have.

I went to several urgent cares—mostly in a panicked state that something was very wrong. I had them hook me up to EKG machines to monitor my heart. I went to the ER three times with the thought I was going to have a heart attack or stroke. I saw a trusted Naturopathic doctor who had a good head on her shoulders when it came to integrating allopathic and holistic approaches. I saw a different, more allopathically trained General Practitioner to be sure. I had a chiropractor I went to regularly. I was referred to a cardiologist to rule out any heart issues and a neurologist to rule out multiple sclerosis. I had an echocardiogram and heart stress test. I had a brain MRI. I had bloodwork done more times than I can count within those few months. Being poked and prodded became my life. I was offered Xanax as the only remedy more than once. The dismissals I received ranged from “it must be because your boyfriend is out of town for work” to “you just need a vacation.” None of this was true. I knew my body and I knew there was more to what I was experiencing. I had never felt so lost, scared, and let down in my life. Not to mention the tortuous waiting game everyone experiences when trying to find answers for your health issues.

My naturopathic doctor was the most helpful. She looked at me in the eyes and said, “I believe you”. She performed practical exams in her office and did a full workup of bloodwork, which included testing me for viruses. She was the only doctor I saw that took the time to do this. When the bloodwork came back, I had tested positive for active and past infection of Epstein Barr Virus, along with a couple other viruses, like Cytomegalovirus. This was the only diagnosis I ever received. She explained that my symptoms could very well be caused by these viruses, but I didn’t understand how or why, and quite honestly, I had a hard time believing it. She put me on an anti-viral protocol and anti-inflammatory diet. I had hope…but I wasn’t really improving. Based on what I was researching myself, I was convinced that I had at least one or several different autoimmune diseases. All my symptoms lined up to quite a few. But I also read that most people don’t receive their official autoimmune diagnosis for several years, because they are so hard to pinpoint. At that point, I didn’t really have the desire to seek out that diagnosis, because really, what would that diagnosis solve? I had already seen that most doctors didn’t really have any solid plans for healing from autoimmune diseases. So, I continued to pursue my own path to healing (with the help of my Naturopathic doctor).

Mid-year, I came across a post on social media from the Medical Medium. The name intrigued me, as I had always been fairly open to things of that nature. What floored me was he had an entire article about the Epstein Barr Virus. In all my own understanding and researching about the virus, I had never come across such a long, detailed article about it.

It was as if he was describing me to a tee.

I had never resonated so deeply with something as Truth. All the pieces of my health puzzle came falling into place and I knew I had found my answers. I implemented his suggestions that resonated with me at that time (with the help of my Naturopathic doctor). By the end of that year, I was healthy enough to go back to work and most of those life altering symptoms never returned.

Little did I know, this was only the beginning…

“One doesn’t simply” just heal and then revert to their old ways of living. No, you cannot unsee once you have been awakened to this new realm of healing. It is truly a return to Self. To Source. (Because it is the same!) It is a return to Love. And it is a constant practice. The most beautiful practice I have been honored to be a part of and witness within myself. It has been messy and wild, exhilarating and heartbreaking. Slow, and has tried my patience at times. I am humbled by it, yet so proud of it. The most profound thing I learned throughout my journey was that no one was coming to save me. Yes, all the doctors, healers, coaches I have learned from along the way were key in my journey. But the answers I was looking for, and all my healing was within me.

This is where you come in.

I want everyone to become to understand this deep knowing. Healing is within your reach, and perhaps our biggest lesson in this life, is that we must save ourselves. Because we are beyond capable. We are that powerful.

It took my soul awhile to remember, but my higher purpose is to assist. To gently guide you back to your True Nature. We are not meant to suffer on this planet, in any sort of capacity—physically, mentally, emotionally, or spiritually. We are meant to remember just how powerful the Human Spirit really is—which includes your own. We are here to heal, to grow, to transcend and then ascend. I can help you find your path, because I have walked my own and will continue to walk it.

My calling is to empower you to take your health and wellbeing into your own hands. To be your intuitive friend, biggest cheerleader, and Witness. To illuminate who you truly are and the ultimate Freedom and Joy that can come with that by taking gentle and practical steps to get there.

There is a Divine Order within nature if you look closely. This Divine Order is within each and every one of us. We were designed “perfectly” (perfectly imperfect, that is). My job is to bear witness to that Perfect Design that is You and show it to you, to remind you what is possible, to remind you of your own Divine Order.

It will be my upmost honor.